Life is too short and unpredictable, not to live it how you please.

Early hours of Monday morning i recieved some really sad and unexpected news - it was one of those things that really catches you off guard, so unexpected and so undeserved.




Lately, ive been feeling really unhappy and stuck in life - due to multiple reasons but the main one is  that im not enjoying my uni course anymore - i've lost the passion i once had and my heart just isnt in it anymore. I will be sticking out the next 5-6 months and getting my degree because despite it no longer being the path i want to take im still going to have an expensive student debt so i may as well get something out of it.

I feel like ive spent my entire 21 years on this earth consumed with education and planning for the future and during that time ive completely missed out on the present. I'm so tired of feeling pressure and stress because im expected to be someone and to go somewhere in life. I used to think that was what life was supposed to be about, getting a brilliant job with good money but its really not, at least its not for me anymore.

After this weekend, i was hit in the face with the realisation that life really is too short and it can be taken away from you at any time. I can't sit there pining over all the things i want to do, i have to make them happen. So i vow that once i've finished my course and ive graduated - im going to live my life, im going to have adventure, make memories and i'm going to cross things off my bucket list! I refuse to be one of those people who spends their life wondering 'what if?' - i want to look back over my life and rejoice in all the wonderful and crazy things i've done.

So im sorry mum, nan and all those people who expect me to be something but i can't do that anymore, i can't be that person. I'm tired of planning out my life, who and what i should be because all these things are whats stopping me from actually living it.

Life's is just too short - i refuse to waste it!

 R.I.P James
Such a genuine and lovely lad, taken way too young!
Natalie xx

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6 comments:

  1. I know how you feel! I've recently been feeling like my life's been paused whilst everyone else has skipped ahead I feel stuck its horrible. It's definitely important to take time to have fun and do all those things that you want to do/see. Sorry for your loss xx

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  2. Its horrible when the passion runs out of something you enjoy so much! That has happened to me far to often. The best thing to do is to keep smiling & have a goal & do all you can to complete them in life. I'm sorry for your loss & hope you feel better soon xx


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  3. I was a graphic design student too and I felt the exact same as you. I lost passion for it after my second year but decided to carry on. In the end didn't get the best mark as I gave up but I got my degree. Keep at it, then go wild! I hope you feel better soon xx

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