I've been considering writing this blog post for a while but every time I've sat down to write it, i either don't know what to say or I've struggled putting the right words together.
Death is something that affects everyone sooner or later yet it's something that no-one is ever prepared for - even when it's expected. My Father (He's my Grandad but i just call him Father - don't ask why) had been ill for quite sometime, for the past few months he had multiple stays in the hospital each time more critical than the last and each time we was told to prepare for the worst. We all knew it was inevitable but you just never think it's really going to happen.
Sadly, on 15th May 2015 at 5:20pm, my Father passed away at home. Whilst it's a relief to know he's no longer suffering or in pain I'm still struggling to get my head around the fact that he's gone and that I'm never going to see him again. I've always been really close to my Father, he's the only father figure I've ever had in my life and i just don't know how to accept that he's not here anymore.
I'm really lucky to be surrounded by incredible people; certain family members and some of my lovely friends have really been there for me and I'd honestly be so lost without them. I mentioned in a different Life Lately post i did (this one) about how my friendship group had changed alot over the year and i honestly don't know what i did without them in my life before and i definitely would not be able to get through this without them.
We had to wait until the 1st June until we could have the funeral so i kind of feel like I've spent the last two weeks in limbo and i was hoping that the funeral might provide some sort of closure to me but i don't really feel like it has. I know he's gone but i still can't get my head around it. I'm back at work now and I've been spending a lot of time at my Nan's too but I'm slowly easing myself back into normal life and trying to get on with things best i can, I'll be back to my normal blogging routine soon - hopefully.
R.I.P Father, my heart is broken and my world will never be the same without you.